2009/06/05

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緊急新聞播報:世衛于今日下午8時30分發現一種有效經過網路并又人傳人傳播嘅新病毒,名為郁悶1號。新病毒能夠透過多種網路途徑傳播,包括MSN,Facebook,以及blogspot。目前未有任何死亡數據,但不排除病毒將快速突變嘅可能性,但警告國際警戒隨時宣布為7級以便切斷一切網路,電視,電話,電臺等連接,于此同時希望大家盡量避免使用以上媒介,并勤于維持個人衛生。

以下是郁悶一號的得病跡象:
1) 突然感到郁悶
2)會上FB到處看看別人的Newsfeed
3)會看MSN list上每個人的Status Msg
4)會被某無聊信息炸到一下...

Single Room, Double Room and Master Bed Room

[05.21am] 靚仔無本心 said: wahsei, you wake up super early wor~or sleep super *early? */hehe
[05.22am] hoo_am_i said: sleep super *early, typical NUS hostel student.
[05.23am] 靚仔無本心 said: LoL
[05.23am] 靚仔無本心 said: why not sleep yet? finding your 有錢太太? */bleh
[05.24am] hoo_am_i said: =.= wth, looking at rental price.
[05.25am] 靚仔無本心 said: o.O finally ganyuan find house d.
[05.26am] hoo_am_i said: see how lo. jialat.
[05.27am] 靚仔無本心 said: WHY--SO--JIA-LAT~
[05.28am] hoo_am_i said: rental distribution
[05.29am] 靚仔無本心 said: huh? easy mah, just divide by 6 la.
[05.30am] hoo_am_i said: not really, there is something call Master Bed Room.
[05.30am] 靚仔無本心 said: somehow it makes me think of "masturbate room"
[05.31am] 靚仔無本心 said: why make life so difficult, man? steady la.
[05.35am] hoo_am_i said: =.= dirty minds...Well, take it as a PGP type A room without aircon,PGP type C room, and a OKR double room. When you look at this like that, then it is not simple. Some may think that "why I am paying a same rental as the one who staying type A? 不平衡。
[05.36am] 靚仔無本心 said: OK, never tot of tht.
[05.37am] hoo_am_i said: yeah, thanks to an invention called attached bath room.
[05.38am] 靚仔無本心 said: then easy la, the one take the master bed room just pay more lo.
[05.39am] hoo_am_i said: yup. this is a critical point, by how many?
[05.40am] 靚仔無本心 said: place bigger, attached bath room also, take as $2000, thn 500,500,1000 lo.
[05.44am] hoo_am_i said: ya. think it is how it goes in the market. master bed room is precious, especially to couples, they need privacy among them, then the wife after bathing can just naked and have her leg first come out, hanging at the door there, and yell: "Yoohooo~DARLING~ I am com~ing" ~ then only wear her sexy lingeries, then after they done can just go the toilet to wash up.
[05.45am] 靚仔無本心 said: you sounds like you very experiece~ */hehe
[05.46am] hoo_am_i said: =.= darn it. but when it come to us fresh grad, this become 燙手山芋, 人人都巴不得把它即手丟得越遠越好。
[05.47am] 靚仔無本心 said: why ler?
[05.48am] hoo_am_i said: to save cost, you are expected to pay more as you enjoying the "bigger space" and "attached bath room" what.
[05.49am] 靚仔無本心 said: don't get it....
[05.54am] hoo_am_i said: well, somehow most will find the extra space is not really needed. and do you think a guy like me really enjoying getting naked and go out the bathroom shouting "yo~man, look at my body~ shaking shaking~" then wear some kind of sexy pyjamas? and thanks to culture, the master bedroom always exist. So someone suck thumb have to take it. you get what I meant?
[05.56am] hoo_am_i said: and according to your ratio, imagine I stay with another guy in the master bed room, and another guy there stay a single room, what makes you think I am willing to take the master bed room and need to share with another while I can pay the same amount to have my own space? and how much bigger is a master bed room?
[05.57am] 靚仔無本心 said: woops...but this have to look at the room first wor.
[05.58am] 靚仔無本心 said: then higher lo, 600,600,800
[06.00am] hoo_am_i said: sounds like it. but then how about when a room is single, a master double bed room, and a double room?
[06.01am] 靚仔無本心 said: 300,300,400,400,600 lo.
[06.02am] hoo_am_i said: wrong.
[06.03am] 靚仔無本心 said: har...why?
[06.07am] hoo_am_i said: take it as hall, single room is $75, double room is $50. instead of a double from double room. Some more as just now I mentioned, couples are able to take the master bed room at $1000, and a single room is able to make it at $500, what makes you think someone willing to pay that extra 100 bucks?
[06.08am] 靚仔無本心 said: faint, then all stay with couples LoL
[06.09am] hoo_am_i said: cool, you mentioned it, is the joy to live with friends, somemore you freely access to the pantry, etc.
[06.10am] 靚仔無本心 said: So, settled?
[06.11am] hoo_am_i said: I duno, see how lo. normally people tend to put the master bed room for girls, then share the cost, as it makes everyone more convenient too.
[06.12am] 靚仔無本心 said: har, why again?
[06.13am] hoo_am_i said: well, may be we had been using common bathroom too long, everyone used to change clothes in bathroom, but don't you think girls need shorter distance to bathroom still? and is also more ok that they use more space? So, it will harder to question it at least. and no more weightage to this attached-bathroom invention.
[06.14am] 靚仔無本心 said: complicated....
[06.15am] hoo_am_i said: yeah, and this haven't account to those how is the housing location to working place, room condition, how is the view of the window, how is the size compare this room to that room, furniture, and so and so whatever you can think of in the world.
[06.16am] 靚仔無本心 said: got so jialat mah~
[06.17am] hoo_am_i said: when you don't care, NO; when you care, YES.
[06.17am] hoo_am_i said: In fact real estate is really a complicated issue.
[06.17am] hoo_am_i said: Just make sure that these won't be one of the points go into arguement when quarreling with housamates, then 恭喜发财、六国大封相, 两个字:盏搞。
[06.18am] 靚仔無本心 said: T.T
[06.18am] 靚仔無本心 said: wah! xiao liao la! 6am d! shit, talk to you too long, I go sleep now.
[06.19am] hoo_am_i said: cheh, you also sleep so *early sia...
[06.19am] 靚仔無本心 said: typical NUS hostel student. LoL
[06.19am] hoo_am_i said: Nocturnal Animal...

This is a Period of Uncertainties

This is a Period of Uncertainties.

駐扎在新加坡。主要有兩件事:
找工和找房子。

工作是預料中的難找,當然已經比兩三個月前好得太多。
至少我們這群留學生中終于有人Interview,
當然還剩下我這種連三流都不是的文憑。
打開JobsDB, Jobstreet, Bright Minds,
各種網上途徑的工作介紹所,
Fresh Entry, Exclude掉那些Only Singaporean/PRs needs apply
我還要比人多Exclude一個Good Degree.
已經不耐煩的時候,會不惜一切地無視這些條款,
甚至連Diploma的飯碗也想搶,心想著連一個Diploma都比我吃香。

當然許多人會說,其實出來工作以后,大學文憑恐怕不是主要因素了;
但我認為那些都是上了岸之后說的話,工作了幾年后,有了Portfolio,有了強硬的Resume
自然更有力地去強調自己的能力;
更何況是心理打算要繼續維持以Mechanical Engineer為身份的Pass Degree?
潑一桶冷水的話:“算了吧,你根本就入錯行了”
在剛出來,又遇上經濟風暴的這個當兒,機會比別人少,是完全感覺得到的。
這是拿同樣身為留學生的一群來比較。

甚至發現自己并沒有在Minister的PR invitation之中。
我不發一言。

不想氣餒。因為這個時期更加不能容許自己打擊自己。

有時候會想,為什么一些別人走著的途徑,自己卻想也沒有想過:
繼續升學? Master in Science? 算了吧,那有Pass Degree的獎學金,也看不到想要繼續研究的課題。
但在找工的當兒,卻發現,如果不要局限于Syllabus,其實自己還是有繼續研究一些課程里不完整的知識的趨向。
總覺得學校的課程太散,至少現在對Finite Element Method,Meshing, ratio, jacobian check,甚至還是認為一部分的Analysis的loading condition根本不符合現實。 還是不會做Large Deformation。不夠。不夠,我準備好了嗎?也許這個就是Pass Degree的程度。 不是很喜歡說不應該這樣來區分,有種因為自己不入流,才去批評這個制度根本是不近人情的感覺。 也更因為自己在中學的時候也曾是那種在高處俯瞰著別人的角度。隨著大學課程,漸漸有種眼高手低的感覺:這題其實很容易。這張考卷沒什么特別。當別人都在罵著考卷出得特別難的時候,我就念著:“有嗎?” 但其實這些在埋怨考卷太難,斤斤計較自己錯了那里的人,其實都比我還要高分。也想過大概自己真的選錯了科系,但是卻還是很喜歡。那也許是一個憧憬:想要自己有能力制造出一輛車的感覺,感激著以這樣的水平得到了創造夢想的機會,而我也恰恰,完成了目的,然后以最低的姿態畢業。沒有多余的事情。

下一個夢想是什么呢?

懷疑著自己已經走到了能追隨夢想的盡頭。已經夠了吧?想要更多的時間去思考,覺得能夠到處去的工作很好,覺得有hands-on的更好,要learning opportunities,Mechanical Design,希望是一個1-2年的long term project。能勝任嗎?猶豫了。有這樣什么都有的工作嗎?似乎有點稀少。曾幾何時老人家們都說,大學生們太撿窄了。我似乎還更要多上一份任性 -- 都什么時世了。

人到了畢業的時候,就會突然發現原來家里很窮。 一下子發現之前說的什么,經濟上沒有問題,專心念書;回望一下其實不是那樣的,一下子連出席畢業典禮時的交通費上的差異也要被討論。這份薪水是迫切的,被需要著。老人家也似乎在探討著我回國發展的可能,畢竟家里只有兩個兒女。回望上一代不善處理的結果,最后變成一種殘局。再對比現在每個人的議程上的沖突 -- 那一切不是沒有理由的。這些都不是以前不知道,只是當時是懷著:念完,畢業,就可以解決這一切,現在先別想。姐姐交代了許多事情,也把這些問題融入了打算之中,不放心地問:“會和你的打算沖突嗎?”, 我說:“現在談這個太早了,先找到工再看能不能行吧。” 況且,在已存在的限制之中,用僅以有限的條件和資源建立自己想要的,是工程師的必要認知。

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還要找房子。大家一樣的存在著工作的問題的時候,房子被圍了個團團轉:現在找房子,以后工作地點偏遠,怎么辦? 有些人忐忑著,是否還會留在新加坡,有些考慮著升學。一切不確定之下,又還是想到能和朋友們一起生活的日子。大家似乎不斷地玩著大風吹游戲。今天誰決定搬出去,明天誰不住了,談不妥只好散了。然后又找過:

Easy Come Easy Go;今日夾份;聽日Say No

沒有人是壞人。只是大家彼此一樣的,被一堆財務,地點,時間,性格牽扯著,那些從前可以大聲說沒關系的事情,必須面對現實了--到了無法支撐的時候,問題是關鍵的。不想把關系搞糟,也許揮揮手道別,以后可能還可以見面談天喝啤酒。大家都明白,會寧愿先把臭臉放在前頭。而像我這樣不識時務的,就會連這一點也要說破。

怎么都說得那么消極的。還滿心期待著從那個監獄里逃出來的一片春天的。希望在明天啊! =)

積極。
升官,發財,討老婆。

2009/06/04

宅男的MSN message history

[9.30pm] 靚仔無本心 said: Ahoi~
[9.45pm] 靚仔無本心 said: 你死鬼咗啊?
靚仔無本心 just sent you a nudge.
[10.02pm] hoo_am_i said: Sry sry...FB-ing
[10.03pm] 靚仔無本心 said: 整天Facebook ,你不悶的meh...我的Newsfeed都要被你的quiz results炸爆了咯
[10.05pm] hoo_am_i said: =.= bejeweled blitz-ing, nearly 10k, thx to your nudge...
[10.06pm] 靚仔無本心 said: Ok lo...FB FB FB...no need find job lo...
[10.07pm] hoo_am_i said: you yourself also keep pet society... @@
[10.08pm] 靚仔無本心 said: let you zadao */fell got interview liao mah?
[10.08pm] hoo_am_i said: no......... */cry
[10.08pm] hoo_am_i said: nvm, zuiduo I go 10th floor wash toilet...
[10.09pm] 靚仔無本心 said: 你看你啦,一點大志都沒有..只會FB
[10.11pm] hoo_am_i said: 你夠每天都Send Resume,你有 Interview meh...*/meh
[10.12pm] 靚仔無本心 said: =.=||| 至少我有大志。
[10.13pm] hoo_am_i said: 什么大志?
[10.14pm] 靚仔無本心 said: 上聯-行街食飯睇戲撩女仔 下聯-升官發財娶妻包二奶 橫批-我的志愿
[10.15pm] hoo_am_i said: 無言...*/nga
[10.16pm] 靚仔無本心 said: Then what you doing?
[10.17pm] hoo_am_i said: FB, blogging,MSN,find house,find job lo...what else you expect? T.T
[10.18pm] 靚仔無本心 said: No ppl call you up meh?
[10.18pm] hoo_am_i said: got...Financial Planning Advisor, my mom...
[10.19pm] 靚仔無本心 said: bish...who refer you? ha
[10.20pm] hoo_am_i said: Spy lo, he msg me while I still in msia.
[10.20pm] 靚仔無本心 said: LoL
[10.21pm] 靚仔無本心 said: no doing your FYP2 liao meh?
[10.22pm] hoo_am_i said: what FYP2? FYP results out liao mah
[10.22pm] 靚仔無本心 said: Find Your Partner. */bleh
[10.30pm] hoo_am_i said: nope, no money, no time, no cap, no target...
[10.31pm] hoo_am_i said: */haiz ...沒工作,沒女朋友,my 4 year university life is a failure...找個有錢太太當小白臉算了...
[10.31pm] 靚仔無本心 said: 有錢太太... high level */sweat
[10.33pm] 靚仔無本心 said: cannot like that one, you must open up your heart, job aso like that, girl also like that... this kind of things arr, must practice one you know?
[10.33pm] hoo_am_i said: =.+|||
[10.34pm] 靚仔無本心 said: yalal, even you don't like the job, can practice interview sia, else you can't perform well one, later nervous. Girls even more, must be brave one, go approach yourself, you think so easy to maintain a relationship?
[10.35pm] hoo_am_i said: no link, =.=
[10.36pm] 靚仔無本心 said: juz try, trust me. ask her out.
[10.37pm] hoo_am_i said: 都講沒有交集咯...
[10.38pm] 靚仔無本心 said: 還test不到你,剛才講沒有wor...
[10.39pm] hoo_am_i said: OKOKOKOK...fine, tell you what I will do, I set a event, thn ask her to R.S.V.P, fine?
[10.40pm] 靚仔無本心 said: Walau, zadao, how come I never tought of this way sia...pandai betul...
[10.41pm] hoo_am_i said: */shine
[11.30pm] hoo_am_i said: !!!! she responsed =.=
[11.31pm] 靚仔無本心 said: how is it? attending? not attending?
[11.31pm] hoo_am_i said: may be attending */cry
[11.32pm] 靚仔無本心 said: LROTF!