Anniversary

Upon the end of this week, I will be reaching the anniversary for my first job.
I am flooded with tasks but it seems I still have to try and sum it up.

1) Leaves
I had taken 5 days MCs due to wisdom tooth surgery, 3 Half Days MCs due to Flu and Allergic, 4-5 offset timer to settle my work pass issues. While the past Chinese New Year, I was still under contract and not entitled to annual leaves but no paid block leaves. I have all my prorated leaves accumulated to a total of 14 days upon next week. --Which means I did not take any annual leaves within this year. I think I must be some workaholic. =.= Ok...I am going to take a one day leave on the end of this month.

2) Lifestyle and Health
No, I got no lifestyle, I started to live alone by renting a room with an old couples. My daily route is work-net-sleep. typical otaku. I have been stop for jogging as the beginning of my working life I stayed in Chua Chu Kang, the excuses was reaching home at 10pm is tiring enough. But it was then scattered in the air and never restored. One of my colleague who is in my dad's age keep nagging on me I should get some life, get a girl friend, and most importantly -- go home more often. Mr. Simon, I do take importance on your advise. thanks. =)

3) Get Things Right
At the beginning there was some discretion with my tasks. So end up I got to rewrite the manuals. The manager in charge did not get it thought it was only to change the visual look of the format. I commited to him to finish them before christmas, but I doubt that with all the active priorities I can really touch on them. But this is really annoying when stuff stagging there was a year ago. I want them to be gone in near future so that no more long pending - lagging follow up dragging me.

4) Efficiency, Efficacy, Effectiveness
If everyday everyone is coming over you and asked if their stuff is done, or telling you that somethings goes wrong again, I take that as there are still alot for me to improve.-- It just can't be, and creating so much follows up, making more busy, less time to think, more excuse for mistake and --"I don't know". And due to so much of follow up, the desk is a total mess, too much to handle on one time. My brain is not Hexa-core nor octo-core, so be effective clear all stuff, and ensure they go out and no coming back anymore, thats the quantity and quality.

5) Reducing "I don't know", and "I am not so sure of it"
It has been one year and now I can barely declare that I am a newbie. Being in a mist of the big picture it seems quite ridiculous. Can't just wait for order, go out and ask more "why" and check more on the project background.

6) Reducing waste paper. Eco-friendly.
Stop wrong printing. Do better filing, and reduce the draft paper on the cabinet.

7) Stress Management
Stress...stress.. and stress. Gotta handle them better.

8) Learn to be a Leader
I must admit that I have difficulties in this, managing time, inventory and most -- people. I recently have this problem coordinating with one of the guys. He really drives my nerves. So, learn to handle it better, talk better, give better instructions, more prepared, and faster.

9) Get an Interview
I keep asking myself the question if after this one year what stages I have reached. If I had achieve what the industry expected to be someone had work in the field for one year. My proposal is to have an interview. I had a call some weeks ago but at last it didn't turn out as could not arrange for the session by the time and they loose their interest. I guess at the same time I got to "zeng" my resume too...

10) Development and Enriching Knowledge
I've been searching in books, although few were bought. On the job of course is a good learning opportunity, learning for mistakes, learning from other's mistakes, extracting information and advises from others, appreciating others designs. But it seems to be a time for the theoretical part too, other than practical.

11) Direction, direction, direction.
Whether I like it or not, if this were the long term or short term achievement that I been seeking for is still in question. I did not flip flop, as no where to go, and no where else take me, so additional reason is if I just left because of some troubles it could be too early and bias to define. But it is still a major question that I should rethink about it after this one year.

That's for now. Hopefully I could revise and give all with a tick on next year.

迷路遊戲

不知道哪裡看來的
“一個人在城市裡久了，偶爾跟自己玩玩迷路遊戲”
下班後，原本打算是要到附近的一個購物中心買些東西就回房間的。
在巴士車站等到悶了，隨便的看到一個順眼的車號就上車了。
到了一半的路程，知道又搞錯了。

“隨便吧，搭到完看會到哪裡。”
“不對哦，萬一跑到去兀蘭怎麼辦。”
“兀蘭就兀蘭啦～大不了打個電話給房東今天不回就得了。”

這個月的週六都在加班或上班中渡過。
於是有一個月沒有至少兩天的週末。
總覺得好累。

失望的是，巴士沒有到兀蘭，也沒有到柔佛，連宏茂橋都沒有到。
只在兩個地鐵站遠的地方就宣告到終站了。

下了車後，一心想在附近逛逛走走，誰知道想回去的時候居然在原地迷路了。
找了很久，才找到地方搭車回去。

也許只是迷糊。也許只是無聊。
需要在沉悶不變的生活軌跡中，時不時打亂一下自己。

重游

我走过每一个曾经熟悉的楼梯，走廊到山坡，检视着花花草草，每一个楼层。
伪装成一个旁观者漠视着这些景物里的那个我。直到看着他们一个个或者绝望，或者升华，或者变异，或者零散，或者碎裂
--消失了，四周恢复了平静。

这时的我，才觉得我再次属于我自己了。